[tor-talk] Jacob Appelbaum allegedly intimidated victims into silence and anonymity

[Cecilia Tanaka]

Oh, sorry!!!  God, I need to have some sleep with urgence!  This private
letter was sent to the list for mistake, sorry!!!  :((

Uh, instead dying in next Sunday, it will be better to die now!  What a
shame!  :((
On Jun 10, 2016 2:06 AM, "Cecilia Tanaka" <cecilia.tanaka at gmail.com> wrote:

> On Jun 9, 2016 8:17 PM, <tor_talk at arcor.de> wrote:
> the questioning by police is over you will feel relieved.
>
> > Off Topic till end of mail
> > @Cecilia Tanaka
> > Sorry if my posts weren't excellent and you feel to post your story and
> emotions. you are stronger than you think and your words are beautiful.
> > there will be no contract to feel safe from operations like this.
>
> Hi, tor_talk!  How are you doing?  :)
>
> Sorry for writing in private, but I don't want to kill all the people in
> the tor-talk list with my always too long and boring messages this time,
> haha!!  ;D
>
> Please, don't die of boredom or someone will say that I am a "killer
> defending a rapist" and I prefer when they call me "sociopath", haha!!  ;D
>
> Your posts always are excellent and I am thankful for all of them, my dear
> tor_talk.  Please, never be afraid of being yourself.
>
> All the times when I read your posts, I think  "Oh, I need to study German
> again"!  I can say "Ich Liebe Dich", "Tschüß", "Apfelstrudel" and
> "Milchreis" pretty well, but everybody thinks I am sneezing when I say
> "Entschuldigung", haha!!  ;)
>
> Even when speaking Portuguese, I have a kind of "cecilian" accent, a
> bizarre mix between Japanese and Italian accents, haha!!  When I was
> younger, for a considerable lapse of time, Italian was my second language.
> My Japanese is a disaster, even being my parents' language, so I never
> considered it as being my second language.  You can imagine how strange is
> when I try to speak English or German, hahaha!!!  ;D
>
> I tried some German several years ago and a little bit after falling in
> love with "the sweetest man in the world", mentioned before in another
> post.  He is a German engineer and saved my life several times in all
> possible senses, my dear.
>
> I am not strong as you think.  I never was.  I had almost no sleep in the
> last days and I've spent my whole day crying because I am missing my lost
> love.
>
> The Brazilian version of "Valentine's Day" will be in the next Sunday,
> June, 12, and I want to die all the minutes because I am seeing lots of
> sweet hearts and love stuff in all the places and medias and my heart
> breaks and breaks in an infinite pain, without never stopping...  It will
> be my first Brazilian Valentine's Day without a sweet message of him and I
> am sure that it will be the longest day of my life and I finally will die
> of sadness...  :'(
>
> Ah, sorry for spending so much of your time just explaining why I love
> German language and my German engineer and why I am not a strong person at
> all, haha!!  ;)
>
> I don't know the reason, but all my German friends have lots of infinite
> patience.  I really admire and envy it.  Don't tell anyone, but I think
> that "oriental patience" is not true.  I have almost no patience with
> anything, uh!  :P
>
> Well, I am a kind of 'zombie' in the last months.  I am still alive, but
> the best part of me definitely died when he stopped to love me.  :'(
>
> And now I need to learn how to make decent home-made Sauerkraut alone,
> uff...  Mine stinks.  Literally, stinks.  And I do love it in sandwiches,
> uff...  Why does love always make me suffer so much?  snif!  :'(
>
> > you wrote:
> > ...you didn't scream of pleasure loudly enough for all the neighbourhood
> knows
> > that I am a good lover! ...
> >
> > next time give this kind of lover a favor and do screams on tape to play
> whenever he visits you ;-) you can tune the volume up accordingly to your
> neighborhood. at the end of the tape: the screams you heard doesn't
> necessarily have a correlation to the skill or action of my partner. (it
> doesn't even necessarily indicate that someone has finished.)
>
> Hahaha!!!  I was just joking, haha!!  ;D
>
> Two years ago, I had a bizarre couple of neighbours and she was pretty
> younger than he, an old rich man.  So, all the times when they were having
> any sexual relation, she always was screaming extremely loud  - because he
> was almost deaf! -  that my neighbours' bizarre sounds became inspiration
> for a crazy project of mine at hackerspace, with the help of some
> engineers, haha!!  ;D
>
> I was so terribly stressed with all those f*cking sounds  - f* sounds in
> both senses, haha!! -  that, in a long stressing night, when I was
> finishing a pretty hard work, and she screamed much louder than my music, I
> had a kind of comical revenge...  :B
>
> When she screamed "I am feeling so hot, I am burning, I am in fire!!!", I
> screamed "Help, help!!!  Call the firefighters!!!  She is dying!!!".  All
> the stressed  neighbourhood laughed a lot for a long time, and, two days
> after it, the noisy couple moved to another place and I never used my
> project, haha!!  ;)
>
> > rape will be an empty word as terrorist is.
>
> Empty words, stupid labels, lynching people without proofs...  Maybe dying
> of sadness soon, in this Sunday, will be better than waiting more for the
> future...  I always had hope and believed in a better world, but,
> sometimes, I feel so much fear of being wrong and living just for seeing a
> more miserable and sad world, my dear...  My heart is already broken.  My
> death will be pure despair if I live just for seeing my dreams becoming an
> even worse nightmare...  :'(
>
> Well, I will pray for a better world and will try to do my part.  Let's
> cross our fingers and have hope in a better future for all the people, my
> dear!  :*
>
> Warm hugs!  Have a good night and sweet dreams!  :*
>
> Cecilia
>
> PS:  -  I do need to study English.  All the times when I try to write
> "whether", I don't know why, I write "weather"!  Instead, I am using "if"
> as a crazy, haha!!  ;)
>